A Step in the Right Direction…

One of the things I want to do with my blog this year is share more personal details about me. Sometimes they might be silly, other times, it may be embarassing/humbling etc, but I still want to share. So here goes… Yesterday I had a doctor’s appointment with my family doctor. After Christmas I had some blood work done and I knew it wasn’t going to be good. Sure enough, it wasn’t. It’s no secret…I’m a big girl. I’ve always struggled with my weight, but I have never ever been this big. Soon after Anthony was born, I began a healthy lifestyle…and lost almost 65 pounds. Then I fell down the steps in 2006 and broke my leg in 4 places..had a couple of surgeries and ended up wtih a lot of chronic pain etc etc. Well, when you go from working out 1-2 hours a day, 5-6 days a week, to being completely bed ridden for a month or two…weight comes back on pretty quick. Then the pain kept me from working out and I ate what I wanted. Basically it’s all catching up with me now. So after a rather humiliating doctor’s appointment yesterday (I love my doctor and I’m glad she told me like it is)… I was told if I don’t get this weight off, I’m going to continue to be in pain, diabetes is right around the corner and my fertility is already being affected. Ok…whew… so after some tears on the way home…I knew what I needed to do. I came home and changed clothes…and then dusted these things off…

After some some grunting and groaning…I finally got my shoes on (when you’re big it’s tough), grabbed a bottle of water and dusted off another necessity…

...got in the car…and drove to the park where I proceeded to crank up the music and go for a walk. After 5 minutes (I’m not kidding)… my feet were aching…OMG…what have I done to myself?? So after a few more tears…I kept on going…and you know what happened? I started feeling better with every step. I could feel God (and my Grandma, who died exactly 8 months ago yesterday) with me. With each breath I felt better and better. Yes, it was just a walk to most people, but for me it was a turning point. Instead of going home and eating a big bowl of ice cream and feeling sorry for myself because “the doctor was mean to me,” I took action and it felt great.

The rest of the afternoon consisted of making a shopping list and ridding the kitchen/pantry of allll the junk. Luckily I have an amazing husband who is completely on board and said he needs to get back to eating better too, so he was cool with it. Then Anthony and I went grocery shopping after school and got lots of yummy healthy food! The kitchen is now stocked! (OK a couple of those items below are for Anthony’s lunch..haha) (Also, I already had tons of chicken and other lean meats in the freezer.)

I also spent some time online last night and tracked everything I ate….took some “start” pictures of myself (Oh Lord help me), took measurements etc. I wanted to share here because I think it will help me to have some accountability. To know that I just embarrassed myself and shared this with a lot of people will hopefully keep me headed in the right direction. I would love to hear your comments, tips, etc. On this post especially, please don’t read and not comment..I would love to “hear” your support since I put myself out there :)

This a.m….I’ve already been out for another walk…and it was easier than yesterday! I’ve tracked my food so far and am planning out the rest of the day. It feels good to be headed in the right direction to a healthy lifestyle and hopefully an addition to our family when I am healthy enough. As one of my friends joked…. (and I love it)..just think “Diet to Diapers!”  HA!!

Thanks for reading and have a great weekend!